The twins had their five year well check yesterday at our local clinic. It was the full enchilada including the dreaded shots. Phew, I think it may have been harder on me than on them. I was praying every step of the way for guidance and wisdom in how to help them through what they viewed as traumatic event.
Fast forward to today their little legs are sore, Naomi spiked a fever, and naps where in order. Naomi asked me if I would lay down with her for just a little bit. Timmy had graciously fallen asleep on the car ride home from a lunch date with my mom. When I laid down with Naomi she said mommy maybe even you will get a nap. I chuckled and said maybe. In my head I was thinking yeah right. The only time I ever fall asleep is because I have either been up ALL night long or I’m super duper sick.
Soon after rubbing Naomi’s back I found myself dozing off and two hours later I woke up. It was amazing! It was glorious! I must do this again really really soon! My head is clear for the first time in months! I have energy! Heck, I made biscuits to go with our supper tonight! I’m happy and not crabby! I feel like engaging in life with Mark and our kids!
I’m writing this because sometimes, often times, I’m too hard on myself. I forget how many times a night I get up with the kids for various reasons. I forget about the late nights I try to catch up on Mark and I time, me time, and folding laundry.
I am reminding myself and I wanted to remind you my mama friends that it’s OK if we don’t have biscuits with every meal and cereal becomes the normal breakfast for a while.
Dear mama, we’re tired! We are wonderfully tired. We are blessed tired, but we are tired. There will come a day when we get more sleep than we would like to have. Our homes will be spotless and our meals elegant. On those days it means my babies are becoming more independent or they have completely found their wings and are experiencing life away from our home. This is wonderful and I look forward to watching my kids grow.
Today my kids are still little. I am still needed every minute of their everyday. For now I am going to embrace the loads of laundry, fingerprints on the windows, and late night snuggles. Pretty soon my babies will be grown.
Will you join me in allowing Christ through us to allow ourselves to become more patient, grace giving, and loving to ourselves!