Earlier I posted that I want to be able to lay down my flag, because I feel like it often times gets in my way of seeing God’s people as his masterpiece. I begin to see them as my enemies, I begin to see them as people impossible for God to reach. If God can reach Saul formerly a killer of Christians, if he can reach his disciples smelly, dirty fisherman, if he can reach Rahab the harlot, and if he can reach me, there is no one he can’t reach. Which means he is trying to do a work in every single person who is living on this earth. He wants his children back, he wants us to come back to him, to be loved, to find the filler for every single hole that comes into my life. He wants to be the filler, the peace and joy giver.
Now, with all this Utopian talk I want to make one thing certain. That while I want to live in a Utopian society and will try with all my heart, soul, and mind try to live this way in Christ. I will also stand up for the down trodden and the hurt, I will stand up for the abused, the used, and I will fight for them, whatever that may look like. While I desire to see those around me for the masterpiece God has made them, not everyone lives this way. Out of the hurt in their life, they can make others a living hell. I will not stand by and watch others hurt and abused. No more! I have lived in silence too long! I will come along side the hurt, the used, and the abused whatever that looks like. I recognize that there are going to be times God calls me to stand up warrior like and protect the weak and hurting. Bringing them water, bringing them food and shelter, being a shoulder to cry on, and a listening ear. Being a silent place to sit in which words do not need to be said.
While I want peace on earth I know that this world needs policeman, lawyers, judges, and prisons. I know there may be times God calls me stand up and say, “no more”!
I have to admit I am at a confusing crossroads. I was molested at an early age by someone close to me and I have to say for so long I have hated him. I have wanted nothing but whatever the worse God could give him. When I found out he may be in heaven that was just about my undoing, I didn’t know if I wanted to be in heaven with a guy like that. Who in my opinion was next to Hitler with all the damage he had caused those around me, generational hurt. But, now I see my abuser as a man who had been hurt, who for some reason had to project his hurt onto others. What I have realized is no one showed my abuser the way back to God, the way back to peace, to healing. This makes me so very sad, the thought of someone being so hurt and living with that hurt with no way back to the Father. Now, I have to admit that if my abuser really did find his way back to God, if he repented and is sitting with God in heaven, AMEN, Praise the Lord! He is now finding healing and he is now whole!
It’s weird to me to want abusers to find the same healing that their victims need to find. It’s weird to see hurters, abusers, and users as people who have wholes that need Jesus to fill them. Sin has made the world we live in complicated and while I want peace on earth and goodwill towards men, I will neither stand by and watch the abused continue to be hurt. Peace and joy is found in Christ alone the healer for abusers and the healer for the abused.