I have stepped into a leadership role I had no idea was coming. I can see the Lord’s preparation in my life for this moment, for this time, and season in my life. I can see the important mentors that God has placed in my life since birth and the message each of them had to teach me. I can see the importance of great leaders he has put in my life, while other leaders where placed in my life to teach me what not to do or be like. For such a time as this, God has prepared me and is even now using them to mold me and teach me how precious I am to him. Everything in my life up until now and in the future is an opportunity for God to show his glory and power through me. Philippians 4:13 says, I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. Christ in me and through me is capable of anything that comes my way!
I have become Mark’s business partner, managing social media platforms for his web developer clients. we have started the Southern Minnesota Social Media Breakfast, and we continue to homeschool our four kiddos. I love everything God has put on my platter, I truly do. But, there are moments and I hate to say it, but they come more often than I would like. Moments when voices in my head wonder if I can manage everything before me. I never wanted to be a working mom, but here I am, working. I am thankful I am able to work from home, thankful I am the one who can rock my baby to sleep and walk my kids through their school work. I’m thankful I am able to combine all of my passions, literally under one roof.
What keeps me walking? God tells me to! I keep asking for direction, asking if I should turn or stop. The one thing I keep hearing is keep walking. Sometimes I walk with confidence, with pep in my step, and nothing is going to get in my way (God’s way). Other times I waver, timidly taking baby steps, unsure if this is the direction God is really sure he wants me to go. What is the difference in the two reactions? The first reaction I can often see at least ten steps ahead of me, if not a whole football field. There is something reassuring when I can see at least for the time being life is going smoothly. The times I step timidly are the times I’m afraid my ability to accomplish what I have been asked to do could fail. It feels as if I am on rocky terrain and my footing is unsure.
There is comfort in knowing which terrain I am on. If I’m walking confidently, I am humbled knowing I could trip at any moment. It keeps me from getting too cocky. If I am in unknown territory and I have no idea where I am going, it keeps me confident, secure, and joyful. Confident knowing God has brought me through so much already, secure knowing God has already provided above and beyond many circumstances already, and joyful knowing I will come out the other side more knowledgeable and ready to tackle even more awesomeness.
Humility and confidence are a great combination. Two traits I want to master on my road to leadership. Did you know we are all leaders? Everyone is a leader in some capacity.
What do you think? Is is possible for a leader to have balanced emotions?