*I was given Disciple Her to help facilitate my review. All thoughts and opinions are 100% mine. My mother can testify that I made my opinions freely known from an early age without caring whether other people agreed with me.
The last few years have been some of the darkest days of my life. I am not where I want to be in life. Because of this, I got lost mentally, emotionally, and spiritually. Fools gold is easily mistaken for the real thing when you are desperate. I stopped going to church. I could not stand to be around other believers. I was too broken or so I thought. Mentally, I had given up. Yet, those closest to me would not let me go without a fight. They did what any loving friend does when they see their friend wounded. They cut a hole in the roof of someone’s home and they lowered me down to Jesus. They spiritually picked me up and brought me to Jesus’ feet. Even though I didn’t want to be there.
My family and friends would send me scripture verses every day, without fail. I would receive text messages inviting me out for coffee. Some brought us meals or invited us over for meals. The meals are pure bliss because as a full time working mom, it means the world to me to have a meal prepared, delicious, and homemade. I savor every bite.
Lately, I have begun to pick my head off of my figurative cot and to walk spiritually, on my own two feet, again. I want to not only be around believers again and I want to enjoy my relationship with them. One of the blessings that have come out of the darkness is the willingness to listen more and talk less. I don’t have the emotional or mental ability to try to fix someone. I’m too tired, so listening has become my go-to. I can learn so much just by just listening. Less fixing, more listening.
I ordered a book called Disciple Her by Kandi Gallaty. Now, this is the kind of book I would have let collect dust on my dresser. Actually, that is exactly what I did with this book. Even though I chose to order it. I was not ready to read it. I love Ebooks. The ability to dive into a book anywhere, at any time is lovely. Lately, I have begun to crave reading real books, with real pages. Not merely flipping the pages on my phone with the Kindle or iPhone apps. I knew which one to read first. Disciple Her, was it.
Oh, Lordy. This book is an example of God knowing what I need before I knew it was a need. God is currently teaching me how to be content when I am nowhere near where I want to be or so close to something happening I can taste it. But, I have to sit and wait a little while longer to allow it to come to fruition.
I am ready to jump back into inspiring those around me. I am ready to pick up my spoon and dig into scripture. I have picked up my bed and I am able to walk to Jesus on my own. I am ready to engage with the world on a deeper level. My wounds have become scars that shout the good news of Jesus to those who are walking hell on earth right now.
I am a testament that you do not have to die to live in hell, but you do not have to stay in hell on earth mentally. There is a mental and spiritual fate worth than death. I can joyfully live in hell physically if I allow Jesus to capture my mind and allow my heart to focus on Him alone.
‘Disciple her’ has jump-started my journey back to his word and back to his truth. I had prayed and asked the Lord to help me sort out the chaotic world going on around me. How do I navigate our family and our kids through it? How do we live out the truth? What is the truth? How do we love people we do not agree with? What are the spiritual truths we are willing to die on? Lies come from everyone from all walks of life. Kandi Gallaty reminded me through her book how important abiding in God’s word is to my clarity and sorting out the truth.
Life is hard. It hurts. But I also want my pain to make me a more compassionate person. I want our family’s trials to allow us to build up and make the world a better place. I know Disciple Her is a great place for me to start. You can find it here at Amazon or here at Lifeway’s website.
*I was given Disciple Her by Kandi Gallaty to help facilitate my review. All thoughts and opinions are 100% mine. My mother can testify that I made my opinions freely known from an early age without caring whether other people agreed with me.