The last few weeks have felt like forever to my brain. In the process of figuring out my new role of becoming a social media director, writing had to be put on the back burner. I have been patient, praying for the Holy Spirit to put words in my mouth, and asking him to have my words make sense when they come out of my mouth.
I can speak, I have been trained how to give presentations. Speaking to me means I need to figure what the story is I need to tell. How can I connect with my audience, get across the important points I want to make, and help them feel empowered when I’m done.
What I have a hard time doing is making my words make sense in a moment of conversation. If you see me at the grocery store or at a restaurant and I sneak away, I promise it has nothing to do with you. It does have to do with the fact that my brain struggles to form sentences. What my brain thinks is not always the thing that comes out of my mouth. I always say, “I’m a writer, not a speaker.” I am in the process of learning how to articulate out of my mouth what seems to make sense in my head.
Sitting here at my computer, fingers posed ready to listen to the words my heart needs to say, I’m ready to help give myself the gift of processing the world around me. One of the skills I am teaching myself is to not need to run to my keyboard to write my thoughts down before they escape. I am teaching myself how to process over time the thoughts that are coming through my heart and mind in pieces, rather than throwing them up. This has become a skill I am using to help myself be able to speak on the spot in a conversation.
Slowing down has been a theme throughout my whole life. A theme I need to keep practicing. Rushing through thoughts, rushing through writing out my emotions, rushing in relationships, and rushing in work. Breathing, resting, and learning life lessons from the sloth and the snail.
I’m back to writing, setting time aside to write. I have to write, I need to write, and I want to write! Thanks for hanging in there through my silence, thank you for rejoicing with my family in our triumphs, and praying with us through our sorrows and struggles.
I’m ready to write about more adventures! Thanks for coming along! Are you a pro at on the spot conversations? I would love any advice you can give me!